CLXXXIII DAYS. ❤
I find myself composing this write-up for you because it’s 11th of October and we’re going to celebrate something really special. :”>
First of all, I want to say thank you so much for everything, for loving me for who I am. Thank you for making me laugh and smile when I’m sad or whenever I’m having a bad day. I still get excited when I see your name pop up on my phone. You’re always on my mind. You’re all I want, all I need. You’re my whole entire world. Love, you know I love you and I tell you everyday to remind you, but you’ll never know how much I love you because my love for you can’t be expressed in words. I know I’m not the best, but thank you for choosing me. How I wish that I could spend my whole life under the skies watching the stars with you. You’re the first and last person I want in my life. No amount of distance, pain, fights or differences in opinion can break our bond. We’re like the best of friends and the deepest of lovers. You are on my mind every second, every minute, every hour of every day. You fill all the space in my mind and heart. When I am with you, it feels like a dream come true. You are my angel from heaven. I cannot find words to tell you how much I care and feel about you. You mean everything to me. Please stay by my side forever. I cannot possibly think of loving anyone else the way I love you. You are my life and I cannot imagine my life without you. We tease each other, knock each other down, chase each other, irritate each other terribly but we can never live this life without one another. You filled my life with music, color and laughter. You are in my heart and you fill my every being with just your existence. I will never ever be able to love anyone as much as I have love you. I have blindly followed you and trusted you and never could I trust another. As I said changes were constant and so with our love. I became tougher with things because I know you are with me. You know my darkest secrets and my happiest moments you see me more often at my worst than at my best, but thank you because you stayed and still being there for me. You might not realize this but you and me just click. You are my strength and my weakness, my joy and my headache, but I am so thankful and glad that every morning I wake up and think about you and every night I dream about you. You’re the cutest guy in the world. (Human kind Shitzu) Every time I tell you I love you, I mean it like ten times harder than the last time. Because my feelings for you multiple everyday. You make me fall for you everyday, over and over again. You make me so happy. Whenever I’m with you I can’t help but smile, and laugh or stare at you. (I do that a lot) My convictions were molded into something against my will. I learned how to face the world with smiles, it was real. I know we’ve been through a lot, with us breaking up and stuff like that. But it was all a test, to see if I really did like and/or love you. Because if I didn’t we wouldn’t of been together right now, stronger than the 1st couple times. Our love story is so us, we kept it smooth and consistent. We kept going stronger and stronger and it felt magnificent. The feeling was just so us, it become brutal from being just mutual. I just want you to know, no matter what we go through I will just be a call, text, chat, message away. I’ll always be here for you, always. I hope we are always together like the way we imagined, but I know for sure someday it will happened. I want to be the reason you look at your phone and smile. I love the way you make me happy, it’s something that I should feel for a long time and the ways you show your care for me. I love the way you say, I love you and the way you’re always there. Another month, another year, another smile, another tear, another summer, never want to spend any of them without you. I want you to know how much I appreciate all of the things you do for me. You make me feel needed, and wanted. You are absolutely amazing. The most amazing person I have ever met. You always make sure that I’m having a good time.When I’m in your arms I feel so safe and it makes me think I am the luckiest girl in the world to have such an amazing boyfriend. I want to spend the rest of my life with you. You have the most caring heart. For once in my life I feel beautiful and wanted. It is unbelievable how I can be myself around you and feel so close to you, I feel like I have known you forever! I may not be the nicest or the best girlfriend sometimes, and I promise you that I will treat you how you deserve to be treated. I’ve never felt this way about anyone in my life. I’ve never had second thoughts or regrets about us. With all the tears and trouble we’ve been through its worth it because I got to share my heart with you. You’ve opened my eyes to love and true happiness! I’ve never been so certain of anything in my life like I am us! Mylove, I’m glad that you came into my life and I’ll be forever be thankful for that. I just love everything about you, your magical eyes, the sound of your voice and your gentle touch. You mean the world to me, you are the best thing that has ever happened to me.
I know God created me to be with you and you to be with me. I am certain with this for I am talking to Him.
HAPPY 183rd day of us. It is not yet done for this will everlastingly exist and last. ∞
I LOVE YOU ALWAYS WILL, ALWAYS HAD Miyo King Lim. ❤ :”>
"BECAUSE OF GREAT LOVE, ONE IS COURAGEOUS"
Everything seems to be untrue now. We argue over those petty stuffs that happened over and over again. We never leaned from our mistakes and that’s the saddest part about these. :’( Where was my fault in loving you with my whole heart? I can give you everything that you want and need, but it takes time. I’m not perfect, you either. We can make everything perfect if we just want to. But this past few days was really heart breaking and I’m falling into pieces already. Do I deserve to feel this way? Why is this happening to us? Can you please tell me. I tried my very best that I can but you were never satisfied. I don’t cheat, never will I cheat to the one I love. I tried to be the bravest person to ease the pain that I’m suffering for a long time. I DON’T WANT TO GIVE UP, but is this love worth fighting for? or maybe this is just a fantasy that fake me for months? Never will I give up on something I can’t go a day without thinking about. I want a serious and honest relationship but this is not happening. Why? I hope I can find a solution to this problem as soon as possible. Too long now I thought that I can change you like the others, but that’s the hardest thing to do because you always ignore what I say. I feel stupid and looked desperate about caring too much. You know how much I LOVE YOU. Please don’t abuse me. I am not strong for the both of us but I can assure to you that I’ll be faithful no matter what. EVEN THOUGH IT HURTS LIKE HELL TO STAY, I’LL STILL STAY WITH YOU BECAUSE I DON’T WANT TO LOSE YOU. :’(